Help me Please!

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Everyday is now filled with overwhelming thoughts of "Where is this baby going to go?" My computer room is going to be the babies room, but right now it is so full of my crap that I don't even know where to begin. I tried to clean it out a little today and it didn't go so well, the closet is still jam packed with crap! I threw out 1 trash bag worth of stuff (good for me). Why do I have such an attachment to everything I've ever owned? Why can't I just through it out?
It kills me that everyday off I have (on the weekends with Scott) my whole day is consumed by trying to clean things out. Why can't I be more like Ian? He and Scott were off yesterday and they went jet-skiing and played outside and had lunch cooked outside. Not that Ian isn't helping with the house work because he does, it's just that he is limited to what he can do. Not for any other reason than that I am a complete freak! He is really limited to the dishes, some laundry ( I'm a freak about how that is done too, he has to do it my way) sweeping/vaccuming and taking out the trash(this is pretty much all I will let him do). I think that Ian knows that if he were to go into my computer room and start getting rid of things and throughing out old junk that I would probably have a nervous breakdown and be completely pissed at him. God, how does he put up with my insanity?
I just wish that someone could tell me what I should keep and what to get rid of. I keep everything, I feel that someday I'll what to show our child these things or that I might just need this sometime, like all of our bill statements for the past 3 years...why would I need that? I don't know I just feel I might. Every card that I got from my bridal shower, and of course from our wedding...I keep it ALL people.
Then of course there is the stuff that I would have no probalem getting rid of but it seems like it's brand new so I don't want to just through it out. We really need to have a garage sale, the problem there is that our driveway is like a stinkin' cliff to get down. There is no way anyone would stop at our house to look at our junk. They can't even park on the street and hike on down because there is no real side of the road and we live on a turn in the road so you can't really see what's coming.

I really want to move!!!! But then the question is, do I pack up all this junk and bring it with us to sell at a new house with a garage sale able driveway or do I just toss it now and cut our losses? I need your help people! well any help would do...
Back to fighting with myself...aka cleaning

Kari daydreamed @ 2:15 PM
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