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Thursday, July 14, 2005

Today was my follow up visit. For those of you who don't know, Ian and I opted not to go with the D&C and instead I took a medicine that would basically induce the miscarraige. After much cramping, discomfort and pain, Tuesday night, we went back to the doctors today for a follow up and to do an ultrasound to make sure everthing came out ok. Concurent with our luck, the pregnancy had not passed and was indeed still there. Now we had to make this horrible decision all over again...D&C, more meds, or just wait... After much talking and deliberating we decided to go with the D&C. Luckily for us, we were able to get in right away and did it all with in a couple of hours.
Now is when I need you all to pray for my incredible husband. He is beyond strong! I am a complete baby when it come to I.V.'s, so first he endured that, me screaming and crying like a crazy woman when they are trying to put it in. I bled ALL over the place! Then he opted to go in the O.R. with me and be by my side through the entire proceedure. Inside the OR they had to change my IV and put it in the other arm because I freaked out so bad they didn't get it right the first time. So then I freaked out again, screaming, crying, crazy woman...
While in the OR they gave me this medicine which made me forget everything! I feel soooooo bad for Ian. Apparently I was in really rough shape and I can tell from what he tells me that it really broke his heart to have to see me that way, and go through this emotional proceedure, the sights the sounds, everything. He tells me that I was totally awake and just horrible with saddness and pain and he remembers every little detail. He doesn't believe that I don't remember anything. Now I feel bad that he had to go through this and even though I did too I have absolutely no recallection of any of the proceedure.
His mind and memory are scared forever, so please pray that he isn't haunted by these horrible memories. I wish I could take them away from him like they did with mine. I'm sorry Ian, thank you for being strong and sticking with me, I love you with my whole heart!

Good night for now everyone and once again, a heart felt thank you to all of you

Kari daydreamed @ 9:03 PM
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