23rd and 5th...

Friday, September 30, 2005

Ok I know by now that most of you must have seen this at one site or another. I first saw it at William's and was tagged by Carrie. So here it goes....Thanks Carrie!

First...

The Rules:
1. Go into your archive.
2. Find your 23rd post.
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
5. Tag five other people to do the same.

"I have to struggle through the day,telling at least one person, usually about 2 a day, sometimes more, that I had a miscarraige."

So there you have it....as close to my 23rd post, 5th sentance, that I could get...My real 23rd was only 2 or 3 sentances thanking Kari for her help when I changed my format...so went to my 22nd.

So now I know that you all have been wondering what is going on with the baby situation between Ian and I....Well....we are just going with the flow right now, hoping that it happens...but nothing yet. We're not actively trying, like charting or anything, just doing our thing and leaving fate in Gods hands. Although we both desparately want to get pregnant, we're not going to dwell on in and stress over it. We want it to just happen, and hopefully it will....SOON!

I've been thinking for sometime about what I'll do when it happens again...the BFP....We had planned after the miscarraige that next time we're not telling anyone until after the 3 month mark, but...I'm so excited about getting pregnant again and I want it so bad that I don't know if I'll be able to keep it in. How could I not blog about it? I even thought about creating a secret blog that only Ian knows about and blogging on there until I feel safe enough to tell everyone.

I guess I'll talk to Ian about what we should do. I'm sure we'll discuss it when the time comes anyway.

My other fear is that once I find out, I will act all weird because I'll be afraid to do something wrong. (I know that the miscarraige was not from anything I did, but you just can't help feeling that way and analizing every move you made while pregnant.) I just know I'm going to be so scared and not want to do anything at work. Thank God I have Ian! He's such a great support sysytem and he knows to tell me when I'm just being crazy.

Ok, I think that's it for tonight, and no I'm NOT pregnant...but I wish I was ;)

OHHHH! I almost forgot! I tag....Jewl, Mary, Michele & Josh(I'm sure you don't have 23 posts yet so how bout the 5th post, 23rd line...or just your 23rd sentance from the begining or something...), Stacie and Beth.

Enjoy!

Kari daydreamed @ 8:28 PM
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