50/50

Friday, July 01, 2005

The doctors visit wasn't as good as I was expecting today, but we need to keep our hopes high. Here's the deal...I have bleeding behind the pregnancy sack which is putting my pregnancy at risk. There is nothing I can do and it's not caused from anything that I have done, so now we play the waiting game again. I wish that I could bring a tape recorder with me when I have to go to the doctor's alone because everyone always has soo many questions afterward and the truth is that the whole process is so overwhelming that it's hard to take everything in. The doctor said that there is a 50/50 chance at this point. So no physical activity for me until I go again next Friday. My regular ob-gyn was the dr. that I saw today and she is also on call this weekend, which helps in case anything goes wrong.
On a positive note, we can still see the babies heartbeat which is a good sign, and I'm not in any pain, no cramping or anything. I've felt a little nauseous today but i think it's mostly my nerves.

I won't be posting this weekend so wish me luck and good prayers for our little bean.
Thanks to everyone for your support, well wishes and encouragement thus far, they help me through every bad day like this.

Kari daydreamed @ 7:56 PM
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Why ohh Why?

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Why can't anything be easy? I thought that pregnancy was supposed to be one of the happiest times of your life? So far, I've had nothing but ups and downs. I had my good week and a half of ups so I guess it's back down for awhile. The bleeding has started again! Only, of course this time it's different again. Almost like water...what is this? Why is this happening?
The difference this time, other than the wateryness, is that I'm not freaking out. I think I've finally come to grips with the fact that this will indeed be the longest 9 months of my life! No more stress I can't accept it. I know and feel in my heart that everything is fine. So I will do the precautionary things, in notifying the doctors and getting checked out but unless I truely feel in my heart that something is wrong I am not going to allow myself to get worked up and stressed over it. This is just how my pregnancy is going to go and I need to accept that, God wants to keep me on my toes through the whole 9 months and that's fine with me 'cause I'm not giving in!
I called the dr. and had to leave a message, only to get a return call and explain my whole story to the nurse who in return said " I can't help you. You have to call the office where you got your ultrasound done, here's the number -------. Bye." Well, now I know that according to my regular ob-gyn office, you don't exist if you have a child in your belly! For those of you who don't know, when your pregnant and you go to the dr's I see, they send you to the medical offices at the hospital for everything until the baby comes out, then apparently you're allowed back to the regular office...until the baby's out-Don't Call Us! Ok Ok I get the picture! So I called the other office and boy am I glad I did! These people are like from a whole new world from the ob-gyn office I've been calling! They are nice, respectful, nurturing and caring! So we discussed the issue and no harsh terms were thrown around and I will be going in tomorrow morning for them to make sure that everything is fine. They were very reassuring.
So anyway, no stress, no worries, and I will let you all know how it goes tomorrow.
Jewl I will try and do my interview tonight, if not then I will definatly do it tomorrow.

Kari daydreamed @ 4:58 PM
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Blahh

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

I'm feeling grumpy, stressed and tired today, probably best if I don't post...talk to ya tommorrow.

Kari daydreamed @ 6:07 PM
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That's it!

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Looks like a piece of rice, doesn't it? Don't worry Ju, the doctor reassured me that it would look more like something when I go the next time (remember that this was done way to soon and only as a precautionary measure, so my "real" 1st ultrasound isn't until July 8th.) so hopefully yours will look clearer too. Good luck!

Kari daydreamed @ 8:38 PM
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Picture #3 The bright speck on the rice is the heart, during the ultrasound you could see it blinking.

Kari daydreamed @ 8:37 PM
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Picture #2

Kari daydreamed @ 8:37 PM
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Picture #1 My little Bean

Kari daydreamed @ 8:37 PM
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I've been Tagged

I've been tagged by Julie...

For those of you who don't know what a tag is I've learned from Julie and other blogs, I've read. In the blogger world someone decieds to answer some questions and then they tag fellow bloggers. Those tagged then have to copy the questions with their answers and continue the chain..here's mine

Three's

Three nicknames - Tigger, K, Katie( lol, Ian)
Three things I like about myself - Personality, my college degree, family values
Three things that scare me - Something happening to a loved one, Big bugs, creepy noises when it's dark. (we live in the woods and there are alot of creepy noises out here, no creatures with rusty shovels though, Jewl...lol)
Three everyday essentials - Prenatal vitamin, chocolate milk (not so much now that I'm pregnant, trying to cutback on the chocolate), Snacks!
Three things I'm wearing right now - Wedding ring, Jeans, T-shirt
Three fave bands growing up - I'll go in order of age...Tiffany(around 7-8), All for One( 13-14), Fugees(15 - present)
2 truths and a lie - We got married on the beach in Maui, I have 2 dogs and 3 puppies, I'm not getting any fatter.
Three things I can't do without - Ian, Milk, Computer
Three things I can certainly live without - Cleaning, Smelly farts, Puppy poop
Three places I want to go on vacation - England, San Diego, Ireland
Three things I want to do before I die - Raise a family, Have grand kids, Go to Europe
I'm tagging three people- Ju, Taylor, and Michele & Josh

Kari daydreamed @ 4:35 PM
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And the beat goes on...

For those of you who have been following along, today was my 2nd ultrasound to make sure that everything is going ok. All is good! fffeeewww! That is a huge relief. I guess we kind of knew everything would be ok going into today because I haven't had any problems in over a week. Scott's summer camp got canceled today due to the rain and he came along with us to the doctor's office. Unfortunatly he couldn't actually come in with us for the ultrasound because they were doing an internal one, a little too graphic for a 10 year old boy, I think. He was, however, the first to see the new pictures, besides Ian and myself. The baby is so incredibly small!!! We saw the heartbeat but were unable to actually hear it because it was just too small. The cursor that the doctor puts over the heart beat to get the sound was bigger than the actual beat we could see so you really couldn't hear anything. We should be able to hear it in the next one, you could definatly see it though!
The pictures really don't look like anything. You can see the sack and everything but the baby is just a pole. It looks like a little blinking piece of rice. Ian and I were very excited to see our little bean though. It was awesome to actually see something this time. The sack size has more than tripled just since last Tuesday when I was there. It's amazing to see how fast it grew. You can imagine what the 1st pictures looked like if this one is 3 time bigger. The first picture was really nothing but a black circle, like an m&m in there. Now you can actually see the little bean. Ian took the pictures to work right after the appointment but when he gets home tonight I'll scan them and add them to the site.
Have any of you mom's out there heard of this Lipil pill by Enfamil? They have coupons and free samples at my doctor's so I've started taking it along with my prenatal vitamin. It's supposed to promote brain and eye development, and you take it through-out your pregnancy and while breast feeding. The problem is that it seems really expensive. It cost $11 at WalMart and it's only a 30 day supply. Isn't that a bit much? I'm not really sure. I know I bought my prenatal vitamins in like April for about 8 bucks and I'm still on the same bottle!

Oh Yeah I almost forgot! My approximate due date has been changed! Judging by the size of the baby the doctor now thinks it will be February 20th instead of the 14th. Plus, she thinks she may have over calculated the actual size of the baby, since it's very hard to measure when it's this small, so when I go again on the 8th it will probably change again...we're getting closer and closer to March! We'll see what happens, I'll keep everyone updated I'm sure.

Kari daydreamed @ 4:09 PM
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